my world, my thought, my journey

Beberapa waktu yang lalu, gue masih berpikir, “pasti dia!”. Gue masih mau ngasih dia kesempatan kedua. Eh, ketiga. Atau keempat?

Kemarin, gue udah capek. Dan gue mulai ikhlas berpikir, “oke, mungkin bukan dia…”

Sekarang, gue yakin. Dari ujung jempol kaki sampe ujung rambut poni. And I’m gonna say it out loud, “MEMANG BUKAN DIA! NOT A JERK WHO COULD DO NOTHING BUT LYING AND SOMEHOW STICK TO HIS LIES AND WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT HE’S LYING ABOUT SOMETHING HE INSISTS THAT HE’S FAITHFUL, HE ONLY SAY, ‘SORRY BUT YOU COULD TAKE ME BACK CAUSE I KNOW YOU LOVE ME A LOT, RITE? JUST GIMME ANOTHER CHANCE PLEASE.’ “

Ya Allah, kuatkan aku. Apabila memang ini kehendakmu, kuatkan aku…

I really wish I could turn back time

To the phase I had my life just fine

Where I had all the love in the world. Where I could smile and be happy and being just me.

Why do you had to came into my world.

And make me deeply in love with you.

And in a second, ruin my life.

After all said and done. After all path we crossed.

It turned out, all was just a lie.

But still, I can’t hate you.

But still, I love you.

Some people might say I’m a fool.

Maybe I am.

Yet, Maybe I’m not.

Maybe, I’m just in love.

Oh dear God, please show me what to do.

For the only one I could trust is You.

Temans, maafkan saya ya… Karena saya sebenernya masih punya PR tag-tag an dari kalian. Tapi saya orangnya suka males euy kalo disuruh-suruh gitu. Hehehe… Pengennya nulis kalo emang lagi kepengen nulis, bukan karena ada tugas.

Jadiiii, skali lagi maaf ya kalo ada tag yang nyamper tapi gak disamber. I’m not into those tag things.

Salam sayang
*cup*

It’s scary how my mom somehow managed to know exactly my feeling sometimes. Especially in times like these, when we’re miles and miles apart, and when she knows that I’m on my lowest point ever.

I spent sleepless night last night. Did he care? Dont think so. Do I choose the wrong way? No one knows.

But then came this short message from her this morning. Tell me what exactly to do. Bout something that’s been jugling in my head all night. When I didn’t say a thing to her.

It makes me wanna cry though. To think that she’s right. But it’s just too hard for me.

Oh, how I love her. So much. Am glad to have her in my life.

I [heart] my Mom

We’re two different magnetic pole.

At all different, but longing to each other.

blog walking terus nemu satu quote:

Kalo rasanya berat, itu artinya lo lagi nanjak, ke tempat yang lebih tinggi.

sometimes words are just so powerful ya… wondering what kind of place that would be for me…

Waktu perjalanan dari prabu-palembang dalam rangka pulang-ke-Jawa-hurray, mobil kami melewati ruko yang cukup ramai bertuliskan CERAGEM besar-besar. Seorang teman bertanya, “Apa sih tuh ceragem? rame banget ya?”

Bapak supir menjawab, “Oh itu pengobatan dari korea, yang pake listrik gitu.”

Saya spontan bertanya, “Oh iya? penyakit apa aja tuh pak?”

“Semua penyakit!”, seru si Supir menyakinkan.

“Oh, kalo sakit hati?”, tukas saya lagi.

Satu mobil mendadak tertawa.

Duh, mereka pikir saya bercanda…